Forms

I am still so far behind in my forms that I can not seem to see the light any more or feel the calm they use to bring me. I've always enjoyed forms because of the calm state of mind they brought to me when doing them. When I knew a form and did it well I got a feeling of peace. The peace is gone now because I'm struggling with all the forms I use to know, trying to remember the next move, the flow of the movements and connection with the energy. I think that all I need is a 2-4 good days with each form with someone who I can work with to get them back. But retaining them is the part that has me lost.